Vocabulary

1. Dispence- (verb) - to distribute; administer
"It dispensed wiath all those bothersome little acts of daily courage..." (page 40)
synonym: assign, deal out, allocate
"i had to dispense all the empty bottles into the recycle bin."

2. Imperative - (adj) - absolutely necessary or required; unavoidable
"knowledge, of coursel, is always imperfect, but it seemed to me that when a nation goes to war it must have reasonable confidence in the justice and imperative of its cause." (page 41)
synonym: critical, crucial, essential
"It was imperative that i studied for my english midterm."

3. Smoldering - (verb) - to burn without flame; undergo slow or suppressed combustion.
"Later it burned down to a smoldering self- pity, then to numbness." (page 42)
synonym: erupt, consume, fester, fume
"His dark smoldering eyes made me uncomfortable"

Vocabulary

1. Acquiescence:  (noun) - The act or condition of giving tacit assent; agreement or consent by silence or without object.

"I'd be screaming at them telling them how much i detested their blind, thoughtless, automatic, acquiescence to it all, their simple minded patriotism..." (page 45)

Speaking amongst eachother they made the decision to go to the park, they cought on to my acquiescence body language by the way i just went along with it.

Synonym: acceptance, agreement

2. Platitude:  (noun) - a flat, dull, or trite, remark, especially one uttered as if it were fresh or profound.

"...their prideful ignorance, their love-it-or-leave-it platitudes, how they were sending me off to a war they didnt understand." (page 45)

Some of my friends have sort of mild platitude towards life in general.

I used the synonym

3. Gentry: (noun) - persons of high birth or social standing; aristocracy

"...the chatty housewives, the PTA and the Lions Club and the Veterans of foreign wars and the fine upstanding gentry out at the country club." (page 45)

The gentry that came out of the gated comunity were snobby and thought low of others.

I used the synonym upper class because i've heard it being used in conversation about people of the middle class.

Vocabulary

Tangible (adj) - capable of being percieved by sense of touch.
from pg. 21
origional sentance: Grief, terror, love, longing- these were intangibles, but the intangibles had their own mass and specific gravity, they had tangible weight.

type of context clue: antonym- the opposite word is used before the word.

my sentance:  my books have a large tangible weight

Reflection

The things I carry... I feel that I carry a great deal of self conscience thoughts the moment I wake to the moment I begin my slumber.  I carry the burden of second guessing myself. I just don’t understand myself I think the way I should.  As sad as it is I should be more confident, I’ve been told by my peers. I haven’t always been this way it’s only started recently when I feel that I have found myself more than ever. I’m starting to realize the qualities I like about myself and the qualities I dislike. It’s funny how the things you dislike about yourself seem to shine much brighter than the things I would like to flaunt. That how I feel about myself, at least in my perspective.

I’m not all gloomy though.  If you know me I rarely let it show, I enjoy making others feel good about themselves rather than make myself feel good. I guess that makes me feel good about myself in itself.

I carry with myself an odd inventory of talents or what I would call talents.  They’re more like hobbies than talents I think, I play the guitar, going on 8 or 9 years now.  As much as I enjoy it and love to play I never took it THAT seriously, it was always just leisure for me never a responsibility or an obligation.  I enjoy art in many mediums. My first I’d have to say would be drawing, I have been doing it since I could first hold a pencil and ever since it’s been a real necessity for me.  I don’t know how many of you reading this can relate something to this but it brings me a happiness and a great relief just by simply being the only thing creatively that I could care less about what people think.  Something that I am completely content with and confident about might be the only thing for me at the moment. I hope to make a career out of the thing I feel I love most. It’s always been very meaningful to me to wake up daily and do something I love and maybe get paid just enough to get by rather than get paid millions and never have a worry about finances but waking up dreading the work day.

Being in school again is clearing my head a little bit everyday.  I feel blessed.  I never gave two poops about my education or being educated all I wanted to do was whatever was making me happy at the moment. I think I let a lot of people down including myself and now I get a chance to make it up.  I’ve needed something in my life to offer some sort of self discipline and now couldn’t have been a better time. I had a great 2 year vacation filled with endless amounts of nothingness and boredom but I tell you, it was worth every boring second of it.  No turning back now.  Never again in my life from this day forth will I ever be able to allow myself to do nothing with my life.  The time of order after all my years of schooling is finally here. I will make something of myself and use my time to the best of my abilities. Do Work Son!